I don't get it...
I just don't get it...

Why are you playing games with me?
Don't mess with my mind,
Because we'll both lose in the end.

However,
You are not used to that sort of pain.
You tell me to my face my faults,
With no remorse,
And then look to me for sympathy and advice for your own troubles....

Get away from me...
Just get away...

What's wrong?
Nothing...
Leave me alone...
I have no emotions right now and I feel hollow inside.
I wish I should hide in my open wounds and disappear,
For who would miss me?

You'll never know what I've been through...
Through these years...

The pain may linger in my now faded eyes,
But it's better that you don't know why.

The trust has been lost,
And I do have my reasons.
They build each day as every single one of my "friends" turn against me...

Don't call me your friend,
You don't really know me.
You don't know the real me,
You only know what I present to be...

If you only knew...

One way or another the truth is shown,
And another scar is formed.
Another damn scar...
Fortunately they can always be covered,
Or I'd be uglier than I already am.

Don't look at me like you care.
That feeling is sorely needed for me,
And I'll reach out for it.
Don't lend out a hand, a voice, or a heart,
Only to snatch it away and push me down...
Because I'll stay down until my image looks like everything is ok again.
Inside, I am always troubled...
It's been this way for as long as I can remember...

So this tired mind continues to search for
Someone to listen...
Someone to love...
And they will see the true me,
If there is such a thing.

I can see in the look you give me,
That I am not worth it to you.
You have other friend’s right?
Closer friends...
"Better" friends...

When will I learn.

I guess I can't help it.
I would love to trust
To love
To know I was wanted...

Well...

Just turn out the lights,
I will never get it.